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A Glimmer.

Thank you all so much for you words of support on my last post. I wish I could reach through the screen and hug you all. You have no idea how much every comment meant to me, and no idea how much it means to me that you all support this website every single day. It blows my mind.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.


I didn’t mention it last night, but I was not feeling so hot. I was pretty scared and felt physically, emotionally, and mentally sick, exhausted and drained.

But this morning I work up feeling like a new person. I woke up alert. I woke up happy. I woke up with optimistic feelings for the future.


They lasted for most of today, until later this evening when I was off by myself running a few errands. That is when the doom started to set in. Fear, self-doubt, fear, anxiety… did I mention fear? Angela warned me that this may happen. She also reminded me of how positive I needed to stay.

As I have so often in previous weeks, I just immediately started praying – one of those fervent prayers. I needed all the hope I could get!

Sure enough, within the hour I learned I had already secured an interview for a part-time job I applied for.

It may be nothing and it may be everything, but it was a little glimmer…

It was just what I needed to snap me out of the funk. I am going to be blogging a lot because I believe it will help me stay positive through this time and push the guilt away. It will help me own my decision. I feel very alone, even though I know I have many loved ones around me. The first thing I am going to do is write down a few positive affirmations and carry them with me everywhere.


Well, maybe not the first thing.

The first thing I’m doing is this:

Any guesses what that is? I’m whipping up a treat for a very special adventure that I’m off to on Sunday. It is going to be lots of fun!

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28 Responses to “A Glimmer.”

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    Brittany — October 1, 2010 @ 6:21 pm

    I’m proud of you and know that you will find a job that makes you happy! Stay positive!!!

    My guess is cookies or shortbread?

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    Maria @ Oh Healthy Day — October 1, 2010 @ 6:23 pm

    When I quit a job that I absolutely loathed, I think I cried for a week straight. I felt like a failure and I had let everyone down. So in other words – I can relate. But keep on keeping the chin up – everything happens for a reason and you obviously made a choice that was right for you. By leaving my horrible job, it opened a door and I found much more happiness and I know the same will come for you as well.

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    Eunice — October 1, 2010 @ 6:25 pm

    I know that feeling of doom very well! It comes paired with nervous excitement, at least it did with me! I hope everything goes well on your interview and that you find that job that makes you smile everyday. Enjoy your weekend!

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    Liz @ LBBakes — October 1, 2010 @ 6:26 pm

    Cookie dough with specs of vanilla bean? Or is that finely ground bacon?

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    Matt — October 1, 2010 @ 6:28 pm

    Those treats are for me right?

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    Lauren at KeepItSweet — October 1, 2010 @ 6:31 pm

    congrats on getting an interview already!!!

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    Wei-Wei — October 1, 2010 @ 6:36 pm

    HAHA Liz! Finely ground bacon? I was thinking like grated carrots or something. :P But I hope that you feel better soon, Jessica. I’ve never had such an experience so I wouldn’t know anything. I’m sorry :(

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    Tina — October 1, 2010 @ 6:38 pm

    Don’t you love how God has such perfect timing? It always helps remind me that I can trust Him. :) Congrats on the interview! I’m sure that great things await you…even if not with this opportunity, still great things are coming.

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    Cynthia (It All Changes) — October 1, 2010 @ 6:57 pm

    I’m glad you were able to take the negatives and turn them into positives. You are capable and wonderful. You will do things you never imagined and be so happy!

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    Katie @ Healthy Heddleston — October 1, 2010 @ 7:03 pm

    peanut butter cookies with something in them?? hmm can’t tell!

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    Mara @ What's For Dinner? — October 1, 2010 @ 7:18 pm

    Ok, so yesterday I read your post on my phone and didn’t get a chance to comment…but I just wanted to tell you exactly how proud of you I am, and how impressed I am with your bravery and, for lack of a better word, cojones to go and do what you want to do.
    You’re a wonderfully strong person, and I cannot WAIT to see what’s next for you!

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    Evan Thomas — October 1, 2010 @ 7:30 pm

    I think that’s finely shredded coconut? Macaroons?!

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    Bethany @ More Fruit Please — October 1, 2010 @ 7:31 pm

    You are going to do great! Your blog is a testament to how smart, funny, and creative you are. Just remember that!

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    Kristina @ spabettie — October 1, 2010 @ 8:51 pm

    I cannot WAIT to see what this is… :)

    nothing worth having EVER comes easy… but the challenges make us stronger and better… you are going to be GREAT and I’m excited for you !

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    MelissaNibbles — October 2, 2010 @ 3:30 am

    I’m glad you’re feeling better today! Can’t wait to see what treat you’re making. Good luck at the interview.

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    astheroshe — October 2, 2010 @ 4:30 am

    Karma- things happen for a reason. I too love to write, and bake. I am a poor writer, ( no grammer skills) but graduated last year as a pastry chef. Something i did as an impulse, for passion. I am soo happy i did it.

    The funny thing is i am actually a practicing physical therapist! I also love it . Yes, there are times i dislike it, but i work in geriatrics, and every day is an adventure. :)

    soo i am a PT and Chef rolled into one. I want to be a PT and Chef consultant and own a baking business of some kind :)

    You will find where you belong..you could always write a cookbook!

    Best of luck :)

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    barefootgirl27 — October 2, 2010 @ 5:24 am

    *fingers crossed* for your interview :)

    MM.. can’t wait to see what you have whipping up in that mixer… as well as what your big adventure is!!!!

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    Amanda — October 2, 2010 @ 5:26 am

    When I read that you have been praying so much… well, Jessica… I just about jumped for you!! YAY!! You can do ALL things in Christ who strengthens you girl… He will see you through this. I know its hard to do, but trusting God with your future will ensure that you are exactly where you are meant to be. He gave you all those amazing gifts for a reason… can you imagine the joy and fulfillment in your life when you are using all your gifts to glorify God? The rewards will be endless!!!!!!

    Much love and blessings to you!
    Amanda

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    CaSaundra — October 2, 2010 @ 5:31 am

    Glad to hear that everyone’s support helped make your day a little brighter! :o) you go girl!

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    Jil @ Peace, Love & Munchies — October 2, 2010 @ 5:37 am

    Much love!!! Sometimes all you need is a glimmer :)

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    Nicole @ Making Good Choices — October 2, 2010 @ 6:05 am

    I’m so bad at guessing things, but I know it will be amazingly delicious whatever it is! Keep reminding yourself that this was the right decision for you!

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    Tracy — October 2, 2010 @ 7:25 am

    Congrats on the interview! *hugs!*

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    Kim in MD — October 2, 2010 @ 9:12 am

    Quitting your job took so much courage, Jessica, and I’m sure that was a very difficult decision! Stay positive! I am so excited about your upcoming job interview! I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers (and keeping my fingers crossed) that you get the job and find the happiness in your workplace that you are looking for! :-)

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    Jolene (www.everydayfoodie.ca) — October 2, 2010 @ 10:29 am

    I can’t wait to hear about the special adventure!!

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    Kacy — October 4, 2010 @ 6:20 am

    You deserve this and have absolutely nothing to feel guilty about! Enjoy this time and I can’t wait to see the good things that God has in store for you!

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    Lindsey @ Foodie on the Rocks — October 4, 2010 @ 7:37 am

    Oh, how I feel you on this one. I’m putting in my two weeks the week after next. In preparation for a much smaller income (provided I can find a part time job when I move to my “dream town”) I moved out of my townhouse this weekend and will start renting it out by the end of this week (hopefully).

    Last night, I had an awful moment of “oh god, what am I doing” right as I was laying down on my air mattress in my completely empty house. Then I got a huge smile on my face thinking about the endless possiblities I’ll have in four short weeks. Gahhhh. And then I freak out again ;).

    Hang in there. It’s going to be a hell of a ride!

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    Talia @ Texas Gunslinger — October 4, 2010 @ 8:59 am

    Yay for glimmers of hope! I’m so glad you felt better the next day:) Fear and doubt have a “lovely” way of hanging around, but each time you start to feel that way, just remember God’s ways are so perfect and just continue to trust that He’ll guide you to bigger and better (more satisfying and joyful) experiences! I’m excited for you and this “unknown” adventure. And, look, already an interview! That’s a fantastic start! Congrats and good luck!!! :)

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