life with max: six weeks in.
Where have the last six weeks gone? WAH.
As I’ve repeated ten thousand times before, I have savored every moment and I still have no idea where the time has gone. It’s been such a (wonderful) haze that I can’t even remember the last six weeks, which makes me so happy I’ve done a few of these posts. I already am wishing I could have those moments back. Sitting on the couch with him, staring at the lit Christmas tree when he was just days old seems like it was eons ago.
These days, he is already more squirmy and not as willing to fall asleep on my chest because he wants to look around at everything and squeal. How does that happen already?! Cue emoji with tears pouring down face.
Week six brought new adventures:
He and I headed out solo for the first time ever and we survived. We only ran two errands, and I’d take him out of the carseat and stick him in my solly baby wrap. I love that thing so much and so does he. He gets all curled up like a little ball and is super snuggly.
Two days later, the three of us we took another adventure with no meltdowns. On either part. WINNING.
And on Monday morning, I quickly ran to the grocery store with him. Never did I ever think these would be considered accomplishments in my mind.
I’ve also somehow managed to get it together enough to get downstairs by 9AM or so, which used to pretty much be lunchtime for me. That’s a huge leap from the noon or 1PM starting time we had before. Man. I don’t even know how to explain that unless you’ve lived it.
I’m DESPERATE for some warmer weather so we can walk outside. I know I can take him to a mall or something and walk around, but it’s been so freezing that I hate the idea of transporting him in the freezing weather. Hibernation is where it’s AT.
This week I also taught a cooking class that had been scheduled previously to having him, back when I knew nothing and clearly was way too ambitious in thinking I could be away from him for 8ish hours. Why didn’t anyone tell me that at six weeks, he’d still be eating constantly and I’d never ever ever ever ever want to leave him?
It was nice to have some adult interaction but I also wanted to have a massive meltdown. However, it got me out, we survived and all was well. I definitely was NOT on my game and my head was kind of in a fog… but who knows how long that may go on! My once-killer memory is still slacking, I just hope it’s not MIA forever.
[Speaking of eating constantly, OMG I cannot stop eating. I am STARVING. I have never been so hungry. You may remember that I had zero appetite during my pregnancy and now it’s in full force. I can’t get enough food, I’m so thirsty and downing a ridiculous amount of water and coconut water daily… AND am in the terrible (wonderful?) habit of making chocolate chip cookies from my freezer stash every night. Oops.]
I still love waking up with him in the middle of the night. I adore feeding him. I love spending all day with him. Every Monday morning, Eddie is devastated to leave and go back to work after getting to spend extra time with him. I don’t know why we didn’t expect to be this in love. I guess it’s just something you need to experience first hand? I mean, obviously we knew we’d love him, but the level it’s on is UNREAL. Clearly, considering I scheduled things for when he was six weeks and Eddie bought concert tickets for when he is eight weeks old that we now can’t even fathom using.
We never thought we’d be the parents that wouldn’t want to leave him but OMG… we don’t want to spend a second away right now. I’m sure that will change at some point and I know we need date nights, blah blah blah, but it’s just so crazy to even think about. Part of me wonders if it is our age. Especially Eddie. Like we knew we always wanted kids, but finally having one and experiencing what it’s like after waiting to have one? Magic. So much magic.
And I also wonder if it has anything to do with us not feeling so invincible anymore, like not being in our twenties and knowing a bit more about how precious life is after those extra experiences. I don’t know. I’m rambly and that probably sounds wacky, but at 32 and 41 we definitely appreciate little moments and everyday life more than we both did at 23 or 25. You know?
I just feel so lucky and so happy. Like why do we get to be so lucky? I very much KNOW how lucky I am and am so grateful for it. Some of the days are super long and of course some are really hard, but thinking about this little dude I’ve been given keeps me from getting frustrated or melting down. I haven’t really had any time to myself since he was born, but I was prepared for that. I mean, who knows – maybe my meltdown point will come at eight weeks or something, but I am just feeling really good right now. Besides fearing that I won’t have a full night’s sleep until he’s 33 due to the worry wart in me. Whomp whomp.
The moral of this story is: it just keeps getting better. Even when I think there is no way it possibly can. It does!
Okay up next: baby favorites! Going to tell you everything we’ve loved the last six weeks. YES. And then, freezer meal update.
21 Comments on “life with max: six weeks in.”
You are just far too cute with how much you adore him, although I can see why because he is absolutely ADORABLE! Seriously, hands down the cutest baby I’ve ever seen… those eyes!
Oh, my gosh, am I missing baby days!! Mine is 24.. So I’m living this vicariously, and remembering, and melting, dying…. Seriously. You know there’s studies that say the children of older parents are smarter than younger parents, right? I think its pretty right, we were 34 when my son was born, and he’s got a pretty high IQ. You have an extremely gorgeous, darling, handsome young man in the bud there, and bet he turns out brilliant! He has two great examples, in you and Eddie! Kisses!!
Love your blog and recipes!! Our little guy is 12 weeks and I feel exactly as you! It’s like you don’t even mind that you haven’t left the house in a week!! :) oh and totally get the whole “starting my day at 1 thing…” I remember being so freaked out that I was still in my jammies at 11! Lol Best of luck he is gorgeous!!
I feel like a broken record on these posts…but our experiences are so similar! My baby is almost 4 months old (OMG, what?!) and showering is STILL considered an accomplishment. Haha. As is getting the day started earlier than 9 am.
My babes are 12, 4 an 18 months and I still don’t want to be away from them! Its the greatest love ever…the most inexplicable, heart on your sleeve, mother bear, kinda love!!!! I am so glad you are enjoying and taking in every minute…it goes soooooo fast!!!!!!
My little man Kale (3.5 years old) wanted to see a picture of your little man and then when I scrolled down to read more of your post, he said, “No, go back. I wanna look at baby Max for a long time.” So sweet. He’s gorgeous!
Jessica, my first little one is getting ready to turn 14 months old, and I remember feeling (and still do feel, in many ways) like you are feeling. I love reading it, and seeing that someone put down in words how I felt. It’s a sweet reminder.
We also waited to have kids (some waiting, some taking a while to conceive), and I was 32 like you, and my husband was 43. You are absolutely right about certain things and feelings being different when you are a bit older. We did not have the urgency for date nights, and were never concerned with things like moving her to her room/crib quickly.
I’ve been reading your blog for years, and I think this is my first ever comment. You sound like you are doing all of the “right” things – whatever the “right” things are :) – and soaking up all of sweet Max. Congratulations!
Little Max is just precious! My son is 9 years old and reading your blog takes me back. Like you, my husband and I waited (for reasons beyond our control) and we were 31 when our little guy was born.
At 9 years old, we have never gone on a trip without him. Not because we can’t, because we don’t want to! We do have date nights, but it took a while before we were ready. We have him for 18 years, we have each other for a lifetime. Do what feels right for you on your schedule. Don’t let anyone tell you you’re doing it wrong.
Savor every moment with that darling baby, they are precious gifts.
I love your baby updates!! He is just the cutest and honestly, you could write about the most mundane thing and I would still want to read it because everything you write is perfect. Also, Max is perfect and you two seem like the most perfect parents. I have a total family crush on all three of your right now!
He is just adorable and I love his little outfits. So proud that you have been out and about. That is huge.
It keeps getting even better! I know that seems impossible, but I’m telling you, my little Julian is 4 months now and I’ve been saying for weeks that this age is so much more fun than I could have imagined. And the love you feel, that so huge that you think your heart might burst… that gets even bigger too. Impossible. I know. But true!
Max is gorgeous and I’m so glad you’re all doing well. :)
I’m sitting here reading through the last few baby posts you’ve written almost in tears because it is all SO TRUE! My husband and I didn’t have our son until we were both 32 (our birthday’s our 12 days apart), and I so agree that I think we appreciate things so much more now. I did not have as easy a time as you are having when it came to the sleep deprivation and the constant nursing, but I had a ton of other factors contributing to my raging hormones. Plus, our son was born 6 weeks early so I was constantly terrified that he wasn’t getting enough when he totally was. I can tell you without a doubt that things are just going to keep getting better and better for y’all! The first time they laugh, the first time he says mama, the first time he reaches for you, the first time he rolls over…all of those things are just.so.incredible. Oh…and our son is almost 17 months old, and I still haven’t gotten my memory back! I constantly stop mid sentence b/c I completely forgot what I was talking about :/
UGH, You make me want a baby so bad! #babyfever
Oh, we are also leaving him alone for the first time (besides short date nights) for FOUR DAYS at the end of Feb, and I am already having a slight panic attack!
Wow you are so spot on! My three are getting older by the second, but I can still remember the feelings that you describe perfectly. He is simply adorable!
this is exactly what i needed today.
i am 33 with two boys – 2.5yr & 9mo. we’ve spent the last three weeks with sick kids – first the older one threw up, then the baby had double ear infections last week, and now i am home from work with him with the stomach bug. i was covered in puke last night. and just wanting a BREAK FROM KIDS!
thanks for reminding me how lucky i am to be their mother. how lucky i am that other than a little puke, they are healthy and happy kids.
it seems like yesterday that my oldest was born, then we blinked, and the second one was here. time moves obnoxiously fast,
I don’t have kids, but planning on one soon. I love reading your baby updates, so fun and makes me want one right now! Keep sharing! The little man is getting cuter an cuter!
All I can say is enjoy every second – it really does go by waaaay too fast! Mine are now teenagers and it seems like yesterday I was in your boat.
Also want to say that Max is just too darn cute! I especially like his 4 week photo – for some reason it just cracks me up and brings a smile to my face every time I see it. His expressions are priceless and he is totally adorable!
I can’t even tell you how much I love the Max posts. How you keep saying that you just have to experience it to understand? Yes, it’s so true. Having a child is like crossing some magical border that you can never cross back over, and you can’t see the other side until you’re over there. So all of us reading who have been where you are…we’re all nodding in agreement and reminiscing about when our kids were babes. For the record, mine are 13 and 8, and dude, it keeps getting better every.single.day. One day you’ll be having a conversation with 13-year-old Max about world peace and your mind will be blown. Please keep sharing him with us! He’s incredibly adorable.
I have cried every time I’ve read one of your posts. I’m 24 and have no plans for kids any time soon, but something about you/eddie/max just gets me right in the heart. He is so SWEET and so CUTE. I cant handle it. I check Eddie’s instagram and your instagam every single day hoping for a new picture of Max. I understand how creepy that sounds but I promise I am not coming from a creepy place. I’ve been completely obsessed with you and your blog (wow I keep getting creepier) since about 2011, and the obsession keeps getting deeper and deeper! I’ve been making recipes from your blog/cookbook multiple times a week (tonight was pan crisped salmon with dijon cream sauce/breadcrumbs). You are AMAZING.
I remember how hard it is to leave them. It was good once I got to where I was going, but there were aways tears on the way.