life with max: twelve weeks in.
Over the years as I’ve complained about time going so fast, people always told me “wait until you have kids.” As usual, I was like yeah… whatever.
Welp. They are right.
No idea how I have an almost three month old. It makes me sad and happy and I feel all the feels.
He is still so very happy. This constantly blows my mind, not because I expected to have a miserable baby or anything, but I can be such a high anxiety headcase (hello type A) and I figured it would somehow pass on to him. I’ve had a few moments of insanity as expected, and I feel like all of my other responsibilities and work are a trainwreck, but the minute I hold him or pick him up, I instantly relax. It is the craziest thing. Like even if he is screaming, he relaxes me – or at least my mind subconsciously knows that I need to be calm and relaxed in order to calm him.
For someone who felt like they lacked all natural mothering instincts and all that, it amazes me that I am only calm and patient with him. I mean, I am the queen of impatience. And somehow, I have never got frustrated yet. I’m sure it will come but I am so freaking thankful that it has turned out this way. I seriously thought I would be the complete opposite. And I feel like it’s one of the reasons that he is happy and calm? I don’t know anything, but we are (embarrassingly) chill together.
Chill? Yeah. Apologies. I had no other word.
It’s amazing to watch him play everyday. He changes so much! Everybody always says that about babies but I don’t think it really sinks in until you see it happen. Today I actually watched him lay on his little play gym for 15 minutes and stare at his hand, then raise his arm, try to grab the toy that was hanging down, touch it and react in bewilderment. And then repeat it all. It was INCREDIBLE. Little teeny human.
On top of the constant reaching and grabbing and kicking and moving, he is still shrieking and squealing and talking to me constantly. We haven’t had that belly laugh yet but he does this deep breath-y type laugh with a huge smile that is so funny. Like probably only funny if you’re his mom, but totally funny.
He has started to smile while he is nursing. Like will look up at me and have this gigantic smile on his face. I lose it.
His expressions are just out of control. In the matter of a few seconds he goes from the furrowed brow to a somewhat meltdown, maybe even with tears, to a huge smile and then to his breathy giggle. It makes my life.
In short, everyday so far has been priceless.
This is officially (probably) the last formal weekly update that I am going to do. I have loved writing about his weeks and my thoughts on his weeks over these last three months even though it’s something I never expected to do. I will most likely still share SOMETHING on the baby page every week, maybe even twice a week, but not a hey-my-babe-is-so-many-weeks update. More like favorites, a day in the life, things we are doing and loving and maybe even just a photo dump for my own selfish reasons. Like since it’s going to finally be spring we can do things other than lay on blankets and take photos every.single.day.
P.S. thank you for loving on my little man with me. You guys are the best. xoxoxoxo
45 Comments on “life with max: twelve weeks in.”
What. A. Doll.
Seriously the cutest little guy I’ve ever seen. He’s perfection! Your baby updates are awesome. Totally wishing i’d done something similar when my toddlers were smaller :)
I have so loved these weekly posts, and I’ll be sad to see them go (I’m also kicking myself for not doing something similar). As long as you keep us all in the Max loop, I’ll be OK. :) I can’t wait for you to get that first belly laugh. OMG, it’s the best. Also, the smiles while nursing!!!! They kill me.
I love these updates! Can’t wait for more baby updates as you progress through motherhood! I’ve been looking for them often as I’m 20 weeks myself :)
I’ve so loved your weekly posts and Max is so freaking cute I can hardly stand it through the computer screen!!! Your posts and pictures are shooting my baby fever through the roof! My husband does NOT thank you ;)
please don’t stop the pictures. i can’t stand how cute he is.
PICTURES! He is sooooo adorable, I can’t take it. And I’ve loved these updates so much even as a single lady with no plans for a baby anytime soon! (But seriously? Cannot WAIT for that day in the future!)
I especially love the picture with him and his monkey!!
He is ginger-perfection! thank your for sharing your little bundle of love with us…its been the highlight of my week :) he is just too cute! I will look forward to the photo dumps :)
I love these updates! Please keep the regular updates coming. That furrowed brow is everything!
I can’t believe there is one of these nuggets inside of me. Reading your updates gets me so emotional and excited to meet my little one!
Seriously, I can’t even believe that you’re even able to write something titled “twleve weeks in.” I mean…he was just born!! How can it have been twelve weeks already??
Thank you for sharing him with us, he is so adorable I want to just squeeze his face off! But..I won’t..
The furrowed brow…priceless. I am going to miss the weekly updates but I do hope you will continue to post pictures. Max is so adorable and that little face is heaven. Have you thought about a monthly update…Max at 4 months, etc…and perhaps lots of photos in-between? Whatever you decide, I know all of your readers will enjoy watching your little man grow. Thanks fpr sharing him with all of us.
yes nancy! that is what i’m currently thinking of doing. :)
The furrowed brow! I die! He’s so freaking adorable!
I’ve really enjoyed these updates, too. Thanks so much for sharing him with us. :-)
Wow good for you! I am the opposite. I am super chill normally but can get really frustrated with my kids. Of course, they are 4 and 2, which is completely different from a baby. Baby = innocent and cute. Toddler and big kid = innocent and cute with OPINIONS! Haha it’s still awesome but I wish I were as calm as you :)
omg the picture with the monkey!!!
you are making me have crazy baby fever jess and i’m not even married or engaged! sheeeeesh!
It does go by so fast. My daughter just turned 23 and I remember when she was your sons age, I wondered what she would be like at 3 years old and what she would say – suddenly she was 3, and now 23! But she’s my best friend and the best thing that ever happened to me. Aren’t we lucky to be Mommas?!
I agree with Nancy K; I am going to miss the weekly updates, but also hope you continue to post lots of pictures. I think the idea of a monthly update is great (rather have the weekly, but monthly will do in a pinch!!!!!!!!!!!!). I look forward to seeing his adorable little face every week. This is coming from someone who is being a mom vicariously through you!!!!!!!!!! Give that little snicker-doodle a big kiss from me!!!!!!
Baby smiles are the BEST!! Pretty much make any/all problems disappear.
p.s. – those pacifiers are awesome. Fiona had a little dog & a lamb.
Please please please do days by the hour photo blogs! Baby by the hour. I love those!!
I love your baby updates! I think you should keep them. :)
Also, the furrowed brow totally made my day. Max is the cutest!
Okay I have to stop reading these because it makes me miss this age SO MUCH. My youngest is almost two now and I get teary eyed every time I read one of your baby updates because I MISS IT. I want my little guy to be little and snuggly again. Ugh.
So glad to hear you’ll still be updating the baby page in some capacity. I’ve loved reading these posts!
I’ll be sad to see the baby updates go, but maybe it will leave room for a video when he belly laughs?!?!? Fingers crossed.
Love the baby posts. We’ll take as much of Max as we can get! You’re amazing!
I hardly ever comment even though I have seen cute babies on the internet before but seriously…your baby is beyond CUTE!!!! Maybe I am biased because I also have a baby named Max….but no…he is really super duper cute. :)
I love how much you love being a mama. I’ll miss the weekly updates, but look forward to any bit of sharing of your adorable little man you’re willing to share with us.
I’m gonna miss the Max updates, everytime i go over to my mom’s house I pull him up and we gush over how cute he is! But, I get it- at some point he can’t be 156 weeks old, you’ll have to say he’s 3! Thank you so much for letting us share him with you!
Your baby updates bring back memories of my two children and then my grandson Jack, as we took care of him A LOT his first two years! Each moment IS precious..
and I see you get that! I will so miss these up-dates! I have looked forward to them. He is precious and you’ve done a fantastic job capturing his personality in these pictures.
Fact: I am DAILY showing my husband Instagram pics posted by either you or your husband of Max – he truly is the cutest baby I’ve ever seen. You have officially given me baby fever.
You are the best and errrthing How Sweet Eats makes my days alittle brighter! You give me hope that my non-veg anything husband will one day grow out of it (Eff I miss Broccoli!) Also, the book is A-MAZING.
Keep on, Keepin’ on!
I’ve loved reading your weekly Max posts, I’ll miss them! I do have a request.. You can’t just tease us about his talking, smiles and squeals and not post a video! P.s. I show people your Instagram photos of Max all the time, he’s just so sweet :).
OMG the smiles while nursing are the ABSOLUTE BEST. I want to cry just thinking about it! He is the cutest! Keep the baby posts coming, I love them.
Thank you for sharing all the updates, every week, and I can’t imagine having time as a new mom to do so, and now as you said the weather is warming up and life is moving on. I’ve loved them and know you’ll cherish these SO MUCH when you read them years from now :)
It’s true love! I love reading your Max updates! It is so nice to read about your real and honest loving feelings about him! So delightful! Happy you are enjoying every moment!
He is so frickin’ cute.
But these updates aren’t for you, they’re for meeeeeeeeeeh! Seriously though, they’ve been such a joy to read and I’ll miss them greatly. I suppose hubs and I really need to get on making another so I have my own baby updates to enjoy. = )
I must admit, i will miss these weekly updates. Since my baby is now 4 (and we aren’t having any more), I was living vicariously through you and max. I miss that newborn baby so much.
Love these updates – seems like motherhood is fitting you perfectly!
Quick question – any thoughts around sharing what you took to the hospital, diaper bag essentials, etc. for us other new moms out there? Would love to hear your thoughts on what’s necessary vs. what never made it out of the bag. Thanks for the consideration!
OMG! He is just perfection. I will sincerely miss your weekly updates. I check your blog all the time for them! Thank you for taking so much time in writing these posts. You make me want to have a baby!!
loved these updates and seriously you have the cutest baby ever!!
I can’t stand how adorable he is, Jessica!!! And that last photo?? To die for. Thanks for sharing your experiences with us. It’s been so sweet – and really reminds me of what it was like when my kiddos (now 3.5 years and 15 months) were newborns. :) Enjoy!!
I love the updates! You make me laugh and cry. It reminds me of the time I had with my firstborn, and I miss it so much! It’s like nothing else! And Max is sooo cute!!!!
I love reading your weekly(ish) updates. I had my baby a few days after you had max, so i love to see what they are doing the same or different. It has been the most special time in my life so I am happy to have another intranet-mommy to share these moments with.
The baby smiles during nursing are theeeee best. And then they start cooing after they nurse and you just melt even more. Now he “talks” to me like, “man mom, that was some good milk!” Ugh, it’s the best. Max is precious.
He’s starting to look more like you! He is so adorable…he also has practically the same wardrobe as our little man
He is a cutie. I am two weeks in and we are all about the feedings. I dread and cannot wait for the play time.