life with emilia: one year in.
I can’t believe my baby girl is ONE.
It feels surreal. I love this little chunk of love SO MUCH that I can’t stand it.
It makes me anxious to even type out that she is one. Like where did the time go – better yet, where is it going all the time? It’s just flying by.
Even though I feel really confident that I enjoy every day with her, it just seems to go so so so fast. Much like with Max, even as the days are passing, I already miss them. I miss them as they are happening and I sit there and think, gosh I am going to miss this SO MUCH.
It feels so crazy to me that she is one already. We keep talking about it and I think part of it is that she is just such a “young” one. Does that make sense? She is just such a little babe! She is tiny (most people think she is 7 to 9 months old!), she isn’t walking yet, and she just acts like this perfect little baby. I don’t know how else to describe it and I don’t mean it in a development way. She just seems so LITTLE. I’m sure it has something to do with Max running around and him just seeming so BIG.
So! She finally has two teeth. She still loves all food so so so much. She isn’t into nursing at all. In fact I’m not nursing her during the day at all. Like I can’t even get her to nurse when I try. I am still nursing her in the middle of the night when she wakes up, but sometimes she doesn’t even want to nurse then. It still is so wild how different she is about nursing than Max was.
I’m kind of emotional when I think about finishing breastfeeding soon. One, I’m nervous, because I don’t know how to deal with a teething child without nursing. With Max, I just nursed him and teething was barely ever an issue. It was built-in comfort, you know? So that makes me nervous. Two, I’m in complete disbelief that we will probably be done soon!
She wants to walk SO BADLY. She can stand and balance without holding on to something but she hasn’t taken a step yet. She has the most adorable little feet. I just want to eat her up. She is so sweet.
I feel like Emilia looks like a babydoll. This is going to sound weird but my grandma (my dad’s mom) always had a doll (not a creepy one or anything, ha) sitting on a chair in her dining room. And I swear that Emilia looks like this doll. Okay, yes that sounds creepy. But there is something about this that makes me miss my grandma so much. She would just die over Emilia, because she is like a real life baby doll.
I know that I keep saying it over and over again, but she is just so SWEET. She is such a sweet child. And it makes me so sad that my grandma isn’t around to see. I just know that she would love her so much – in a way that is sweetly different. I know. I’m crazy.
This last year has been a whirlwind. Last night after Emilia’s party, I held her and rocked her and Max sat in the chair with us and I told them the story of the night before she was born last year. Max wanted to hear it over and over again and it was so cute.
An entire year has passed and so much of it has been about survival here with both kids. The transition from one to two was SO MUCH HARDER for me than it was from zero to one. And Emilia was an easy baby. But having them outnumber me for the majority of the day until Eddie got home was such a challenge. I mean, it still is! I find that if I’m not super organized with everything, my brain is just a mish mash of all things business and kids. So oddly enough, I’m waaaay more organized now that I ever was! But my house is still a mess 150% of the time.
I kind of want to cry when I think about this being my last monthly update for Emilia! I have no idea if I’ll have more babies or not. Of course I’ll still be sharing things on the baby page here, but I’m not quite sure what. Definitely our favorites. Maybe photo diaries or something – we shall see. Thank you so much for loving on my second little baby with me all year.
16 Comments on “life with emilia: one year in.”
Happy birthday Emilia!!!
That outfit in the last photo is adorable.
thank you faye!! xo
I can’t believe its been a year already. Time really does fly doesn’t it. I hope she had the happiest of birthdays. She does really look like a doll. Especially in all those adorable outfits you have her in. Those cheeks are cutest. Thank you for sharing her first year with us. I can’t wait to watch them both grow up for as long as your willing to share them with us.
thank you so much courtney! xoxo
happiest of birthdays to sweet emilia! she kills me. i absolutely love her. while every child is different, maybe this will give you some peace of mind about the breastfeeding/teething thing. my kid was completely over BF at 9 months! like, i was basically forcing it and he hated his life. so, we stopped (which was bittersweet for me because we had a HARD time with it from day 1. part of me was super sad and the other part was relieved!), but i continued to pump milk for him until he was a little over a year old. his teeth came in and he was perfectly fine. if he woke up in the middle of the night, i was still able to soothe him without the BF by rocking, singing, snuggling, giving a bottle, all the other normal ways. you’ll figure it out! don’t stress. i know exactly what you mean, though, about the end of something. it’s SO bittersweet when it comes to kids! thank you, as always, for sharing these moments with us! xoxo
thank you so much molly!!! xoxo
Oh no…please don’t stop sharing. Your kids are so adorable and I love seeing the posts and the pictures. You will have to post a video once Emilia gets walking.
Thanks for sharing this last …or maybe not…monthly post.
thank you so much nancy!!! xoxo
Your kids look identical! And so fair– is your husband blonde?
Happy first year, Emilia!! May your second be just as amazing and just as wonderful!
I have enjoyed every update and photo and I hope you continue to share Max & Emilia’s next, greatest steps.
This made me cry! Happy Birthday Emilia. I have an Emilia too, she is about to turn 6 months, so I’ve loved these updates from the moment when you had her (I was pregnant, and while we didn’t know the gender yet, we knew we would name a girl Emilia). She is also my second, my first being a boy and I agree, going from one to two has rocked my world! Everyone told me it would be tough but sheesh was it something else :) I also don’t know if we’ll have another, so reading this made me teary and happy and everything at once, and my girl is only 6 months! I can’t imagine what I’ll feel when she turns 1!
Thank you for making these monthly posts Jessica! I’m expecting my first at the end of December and through my pregnancy I’ve re-read your baby posts! They are really helpful to me somehow, like a small window into what to expect and I love seeing how the babies grow each month.
So nostalgic, when you announced her birth I found out I was pregnant. So this brings me back to that. I cannot believe it has been a year. Time is a thief. Thank you for sharing and happy belated birthday to Emilia.
Thank you for sharing both babies with all of us! And the good news is that it keeps getting better and better. But, I can understand missing the little baby stage. And E is so, so, so cute and Max IS all of a sudden huge! My kids used to love listening to their birth stories, and same, over and over. I would tell them that the baby went, “knock knock” when it was time to come. Thanks for reminding me of that <3
I love reading about your children..please don’t ever stop sharing. Emilia looks just like you! Love you Jessica!
Oh, your little girl is just adorable! I love all the cute little outfits she wears. They grow up so fast. My oldest daughter is 19 already.