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1. Hmmm. So here’s what happened. I had no idea I was pregnant and for multiple TMI reasons, definitely didn’t think there was any way I could be. After a week of weird stuff, I decided maybe I should take a test and went to the grocery store, where I proceeded to act like I was an embarrassed 15-year old and piled things on top of said test that I didn’t need while ready to go though the self checkout line. When I get up there, all the self-checkouts are closed so I go and put the test BACK on the shelf. I go to this store like five times a week, I know people there, people know my mom – I was not risking going through a regular checkout line with people I know.

I get it. I am a child.

SO I left. TOTALLY forget about the test over the next 24 hours. It doesn’t even cross my mind, I don’t share it with anyone. It’s not until the next day when I’m shopping and get a text from my best friend that says “omg, I just realized it’s April! Only a few more months until the book and then it’s time for kids, right?”

I was like… well maybe I should take that test before responding to her.

I go back and buy one. Take it. Immediately pops up that I’m 3+ weeks pregnant… like immediately.

I start FREAKING OUT. Real life, my first though is major fear. I’m hoping that’s natural – it’s not like I didn’t want kids. I figured we’d try later this summer, after my first baby was born, the book! I want lots of kids, but I was still so scared. I still kinda am this way, just a little older. I grab my phone and call Eddie because at this point I’m shaking and have no idea what to do. He doesn’t answer. I call my BFF Kelly (facebaby’s mom) and just start screaming into the phone and am like omgomgomg and proceed to quickly pace around my house for ten minutes. Like a full out run around the house. I don’t even remember this phone call because I was just shouting into my phone while she is laughing hysterically. After a while when I come to my senses, I’m glad Eddie didn’t answer the phone so I can tell him in person – duh. The only problem is that he was going to a happy hour after work, which leaves me tons of time to kill.

I flip out to Bev next and am all “are you sitting down?!?” Never mind that I had just been with her six days prior.

I’m still high on adrenaline so I drive over to my parents house, deciding that I have to tell my mom. I throw the tests (once I gained composure, I took a few more) in a banana republic jewelry box, walk in the door and say “you have to look at this necklace I bought to wear to the engagement party!”

Cue freaking out and jumping around. But now, I still have hours to kill before Eddie gets home.

He doesn’t walk in the door until like 9:30PM. I’m DYING. My phone has died three times in six hours from nonstop texting. Earlier that evening I placed a hamburger bun in the oven and the minute I heard the garage door open, I turned the oven on so he wouldn’t be suspicious. He walks in and I tell him that I have “a treat for him in the oven.” His brain thinks: cookies. Obviously. He proceeds to tell me ten minutes worth of stories and I’m like EDDIE. I HAVE A TREAT FOR YOU IN THE OVEN. DON’T YOU WANT THE TREAT IN THE OVEN?

He walks to the oven, opens it and is like… “what? Is this a burger? It’s lent, I can’t even eat meat. Where are the cookies? What is this?”

“I don’t know, WHAT DOES IT LOOK LIKE?”

“It’s a bun… in the oven.” He looks at me. “A bun? In the oven? But you aren’t pregnant. I know you aren’t pregnant.”

I just stare at him and laugh.

Then it’s his turn to start jumping and pacing and screaming “get the f@$k out” (in a good way, obvi) over and over. And screaming and running and being all WHAAAAT. Then twenty minutes later: “wait. But there really aren’t any cookies?”

So we make cookies at midnight.

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[i left the house one day!]

2. The minute after I found out, a lot of things made sense. That week, I had cried practically EVERY night. Eddie would come home and I’d just start crying hysterically about something. This was shocking. I never ever cry. I don’t cry at movies. Perhaps I have a heart of stone. Eddie had no idea what to do because again, I never cry. There were other things going on at the time but for the most part, it was unwarranted. This did not tip me off at all. I thought my hormones were just a little scewy from traveling the past couple weeks. Let’s take a moment now and remember all of the things I’ve cried at over the last few months:

(every time Maks and Meryl danced on dancing with the stars, the UCA college dance team championships on ESPN, because I couldn’t find whole wheat rolls for meatball subs for dinner, Walk the Line – twice in two days, every time Amy Purdy danced on Dancing with the Stars (I watched a ton of TV), this post that Alysa shared on her blog, The Parent Trap movie  (yes, with LiLo), the Chely Wright bio documentary – Eddie started watching it and I joined in, Enough Said and the sadness of James Gandolfini, the last five minutes of the Miss USA competition – I hadn’t even watched it until that point, wtf, thinking of the facebaby saying “is there a baby in your belly? Can I kiss it?” yes, he did this for real (I died), because one day my iced coffee tasted like cilantro. ????, The Matchmaker –stayed in bed and bawled.)

Is this boring you? I feel like this has to be boring but I really wanted to write it all out. We only told a handful of people that weekend. That night as we were lying in bed, he’s like we have to tell Lacy! (my cousin – I always talk about her) The next day, we tell his sister and I tell a few more of my close friends.

3. From that moment on, I am incredibly thrilled but petrified. This seems too good to be true, too easy. Barely any of my friends have been able to get pregnant, most haven’t been able to do so naturally. It doesn’t feel fair to me and I don’t feel like I deserve it. I am convinced that something is going to happen.

I don’t have anyone close in my family/friends in real life who have miscarried, but mother lovett had seven. However, with blogging, my peer circle is much larger and I have read story after story. I know that worrying and being scared does nothing, I know it’s not good for me either, but if you’ve read my blog from the beginning you know I’ve been the biggest worry wart since I was a child. Because of this, I practically refuse to allow myself to think about it or talk about. I didn’t take weekly pictures. I wouldn’t even look at the baby book that Kelly bought me until I was 12 weeks. Luckily, I have a killer memory.

4. Remember when I said keeping this secret was the hardest I’d ever had to keep? Lies. I knew I was pregnant then but couldn’t tell anyone there. I had to go to brunch and scrape the brie off this French toast and say no to smoked salmon and pass on espresso with hopes that no one noticed. Filming this video was horrifyingly scary for me. I have NO IDEA how I taught this burger class without 1. vomiting and 2. Not spilling the beans. I’m sure people in the class figured it out though or just thought I was looking extra fat.

5. Here is where, if you have been pregnant before, you are allowed to hate my guts: I thought morning (all-day) sickness was a load of bull before I got pregnant. I thought it was in women’s heads. My mom never had it – not once with three kids. My friends mentioned feeling crappy a time or two, but it seemed brief at the time and I was not in baby mode whatsoever. I didn’t pay attention.

Say hello to karma that slapped me in the face. Working out kind of helped, but not really. Eating didn’t help – even though everyone says it does. It hit me hardest in the evenings, but the days weren’t good either. None of the tried and true methods helped.

Combined with my absolute fear of something happening plus the constant sickness, I went into a shell and didn’t want to talk to or see anyone. I don’t know if prenatal depression is a thing, but I felt like I had something like that. This at least made it easier to keep the secret – I had no desire to tell anyone because I had no desire to see anyone or talk to anyone. Eddie went to the Kentucky derby and I pretty much stayed in the same spot on the couch for four days.  My friend Jess said it best – it was like I was so scared that I became extremely introverted and just wanted to commiserate with myself. Thankfully this only lasted a short time.

I still cooked for the blog and projects because it’s my job. I do not schedule posts, I wake up every morning and manually post them. If I am on the west coast, I wake up at 3:30am. Had I not set this very specific work schedule for myself over the last four years, I may have even stopped blogging for a bit or slept in later, though I can’t fathom that. My work ethic is insane and I am ruthless about it. Thank god for schedules.

I made this caramelized pork stir fry which was so delicious that I ate two servings that afternoon. Ever since, I haven’t been able to even look at the post because nothing turns my stomach like that does.

I bought sea bands. They helped… barely. After a few days, they didn’t help at all.

I never had the extreme fatigue the others talk about. In fact, I had insomnia. I was not overly tired, but my body felt very tired, if that makes sense. I couldn’t sleep at night. I read like crazy. Still am.

Things got really bad on the day that I was roasting this pork. You know how your entire house fills with the aroma of roasted meat when it takes four or five hours? After an hour, I threw myself on the couch. By the second hour, I turned off the oven, left the kitchen a disaster, left the pork in the oven, pulled my car into the driveway and sat there and cried because everything smelled like pork. DRAMA. By the fourth hour I crawled up to our bedroom, shut the door and remained there under the covers in the dark until Eddie came home.

The next day I called the doctor because the nausea was rendering me useless. It sounds SO annoying if you aren’t pregnant. I get it. I have read this before and been like… dude, just pull it together. It was impossible at the time for me. I don’t even like to take something for a headache, but I hoped they had a little answer.

My doctor told me I could take a combo of unisom sleep tabs + vitamin b6. I started taking this daily and took it up until two weeks ago. It was a MIRACLE. I still felt slightly sick but was able to go along with my work and daily life like a normal human. Only twice more did I get stuck on the couch.

6. Which brings me to FOOD. Oh food. Omg. Food. So, I didn’t have food aversions. I basically had an aversion to ALL food. Every food sounded terrible and I never wanted to eat. I am still struggling to eat. For weeks, and I do mean weeks, I survived on nothing but cereal and fruit. Seven boxes of Cascadian farms cereal would grace our counter at once. I had a few bagels at this time, maybe some toast with almond butter. But it was rare. It was like cereal three times a day with strawberries or apples or bananas. I couldn’t eat one single piece of chocolate or candy on easter. Major sad face.

The craziest thing to me is that I am absolutely incapable of overeating right now. I have heard that this happens later in pregnancy, but for me, it happened almost immediately. It’s not like I overeat all the things every single day. I compare it to a donut on a Saturday morning – you know you’re going to get one the day before and you’re excited and can’t wait to eat that donut. The donut tastes SO good and you may even start to eat a second one. It gets old by the time you’re ¾ of the way through, but it’s just SO good that you’re going to finish it.

Well. Right now, I can take about two bites of a donut and I’m done. Last night I took like four bites of this pad Thai and was like… no more. (high five for lunch today though.)

It is very weird for me. I LOVE FOOD. I’ve never been someone who “forgets to eat” or who skips breakfast. And these days, I have to force almost every meal.

This also means that I’ve had NO CRAVINGS. I’m kind of sad about this one. I hope they come. I will say, one day I really wanted a soft pretzel with mustard and went to the store and bought those garbage ones from the freezer section. It wasn’t like a “buy or die” thing though, I was just hungry and nothing else sounded good.

And one Saturday night I did make Eddie order pizza hut pizza (omg he hates it so much) at like 10PM, because it sounded good. But again, it didn’t feel like a crazy craving.

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[eyes bigger than my stomach. the hot dogs never made it.]

Anything carby sounds best – is really the only thing that sounds remotely appealing. For years on my blog I’ve talked about how I’m not a “bread person,” but now… I am a bread person. Things with bread or just straight up bread is the only thing that sounds good – and remember a few months ago when I shared five bready recipes in a row? Oops.

Also, the minute those flavored ice pops came into stores for summer, I bought a whole box. I remember eating them last summer with Bev while she was pregnant and they sounded so good – cold and flavorful and icy.

I’ve had a weird taste in my mouth since getting pregnant, which has made drinking water an awful experience. This has perhaps been the worst part for me because I am a psychotic water drinker and have been since I was a child. My mom couldn’t even pay my to drink juice, I just loved water so much. I’ve always hated carbonation because it burns my throat and chest. And sugary drinks and juices make my teeth feel weird. BUT. I’ve wanted different sodas and flavored drinks a lot more than water these days. Eddie loves Boylan sodas and we always have a ton of them – which I’ve been depleting. I don’t drink one everyday, but maybe two times a week. Almost immediately the idea of coffee made me sick. So that was an easy fix. I wasn’t missing it. More true life: I bought this iced coffee just to instagram it because I had yapped for weeks about giving up drive thru coffee for lent and didn’t want things to seem suspicious after easter. I could barely take two sips. I didn’t really make kombucha cocktails either. LIAR.

When I was at the sickest points, I would complain to Kelly and Bev who would be all “I know it’s the worst, it will get better though!” and I’d be all OMG NO ONE UNDERSTANDS. IT’S NEVER GETTING BETTER. I say this after Kelly has four kids, like she wouldn’t understand. She kept telling me that I’d forget about it and – I have! Of course I just had to rehash it all to write this ridiculous novel of an update, but I don’t remember the worst parts, except for the funny feelings about pork.

Of course, it had to be pork.

7. I bullshitted my way through this entire summer bucket list. There are plenty of things on there that I obviously can’t do while pregnant. It wasn’t like I lied… it’s what I WISH a summer bucket list of mine could look like if I wasn’t knocked up. Next summer! Meanwhile, I have plenty of pregnant-fun things to do.

8. When it comes to maternity clothes, I’ve only bought a few things at Target. A few tanks, some workout capri leggings, stuff like that. I bought a pair of Joe’s maternity jeans but don’t love them. My normal jeans still fit with using a belly band, and I like them better. I’ve been living in maxi dresses, maxi skirts or just workout stuff – which is the norm for me anyway throughout the week.

As far as workouts go, for the first few weeks I was still doing turbofire, usually the 35 minute video. I even did one last week. I’ve been walking a lot (no surprise there) and doing some yoga at home. What kills me the most is not going to hot yoga. My doctor said it’s probably not a good idea, but was iffy. Honestly? I feel in my heart that it would be fine. However. There was a time that I was going regularly 5+ times per week. When I got pregnant, I was only going once or twice a week. Had I been going more regularly, I probably would have kept it up – plenty of pregnant women have been in the classes I’ve taken until they delivered. I did my research and knew the risks, and even though I still felt like it would be fine, I obviously could never forgive myself if something happened. So I don’t go. Yoga at home is nowhere near as good. The prenatal yoga offerings around here suck, so I’m sticking to it at home.

I’ve changed a ton of my beauty products, and I did so almost immediately. I didn’t include them in my monthly favorites because I knew that you’d get suspicious. That’s a whole other post in itself so I’ll tell you about it soon, along with some other things that have been necessities.

I’ve had the WEIRDEST DREAMS. My favorite is one I had a few weeks ago where Laura and I were sitting at my parent’s kitchen table, eating sandwiches that had Kraft mac and cheese inside of them with President Obama. WTF?

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[i can’t take pics to save my life]

9. And for the biggest question of all: NOPE, we are not finding out if it is a boy or a girl. I had an extremely strong premonition at the beginning of pregnancy that it was boy. I had a dream – two weeks before I learned I was pregnant, but already was – that I birthed a baby boy, named it our name and called my dad to tell him. However, a few weeks before that I dreamt that I gave birth to a shark, so take that as you will. I haven’t had any boy/girl dreams in weeks so now I’m not so sure. I will be thrilled either way. I have two brothers, I want boys and girls. I have absolutely zero preference. Eddie always thought he wanted a boy, but now he wants both too.

Finally, we are also MOVING because why not do every single life change at once and try to heighten anxieties as much as possible? Yes. So you can find me under a pile of boxes for the next few weeks. More coming soon. I left so much out of this post, but it is such a ridiculously long ramble of crap that I didn’t know where to end it. I will share more through the coming weeks. Nothing on my blog will change, perhaps just a little update where I have a human inside my body. Hearts.

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231 Responses to “3200 words on being pregnant. I’m not kidding.”

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    Tania — July 14, 2014 @ 4:21 am

    Can’t wait to see how you decorate the baby room! Maybe Mr. Sweet Eats should be allowed to put a wrestling pic in the room, if it’s a boy…..JK!


    • Jessica — July 14th, 2014 @ 8:41 am

      oh no … hahaha.


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    Maria — July 14, 2014 @ 5:10 am

    Excuse me while I beam like an idiot at my computer screen bc I’m so happy for you! Eeee! True story, in your last bump pic, I totally said ” hi baby!” out loud.

    I never got intense cravings either and was more influenced by suggestions. Like if someone mentioned having chick fila for lunch, I’d think, oh yeah that sounds good, and would stop by one for dinner that night.or if I read a blog post or saw an Instagram of something delicious, I would think about eating that food soon (with the week).

    Bread, cheese, and tomatoes is how I survived the first trimester. I wanted nothing else.

    Alright, lemme stop before I write you a novel of a comment! Congrats again!


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    Lyndsey — July 14, 2014 @ 5:37 am

    I loved reading this; more long rambling posts please!


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    Emily — July 14, 2014 @ 5:45 am

    I had the worst pregnancies ever and was sick for both of mine all nine months! I feel for you because I can still remember what it was like and dreading waking up in the morning because I was going to feel like crap the entire day. I’m glad you found something that works for you! The end result is so worth it (but I’m sure you already know that


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    Angela @ Eat Spin Run Repeat — July 14, 2014 @ 7:23 am

    I’m smiling huge right now as I read this. I’m so, so happy for you! Hope there are plenty more of these posts to come because they’re fabulous. Loved the bit about the buying the test – I would have totally done the same thing!


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    Erin — July 14, 2014 @ 7:33 am

    Congrats! Just wanted to chime in and say I can COMPLETELY relate. I was so very sick for the first several months (to the point of being close to going to the hospital at least once because I couldn’t even keep water down), I hated ALL food, and survived entirely on cereal and chocolate pudding. Even now, at almost 36 weeks pregnant, I am still having to take medicine to be able to keep my breakfast down. BUT at least I can enjoy food again.
    Good luck and I hope you continue to feel better!


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    Lauren at Keep It Sweet — July 14, 2014 @ 8:02 am

    Wow, I love reading about other experiences and can relate to so much of this. The crying over almost nothing definitely happened to me (pretty embarrassing when you are in the gym on the treadmill!). I also completely hibernated during the first trimester for multiple reasons.


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    Cass — July 14, 2014 @ 8:23 am

    This is an amazing post. Thank you for sharing all of this! I am a sucker for pregnancy stories. Having followed your blog for the last couple years, this is such an exciting thing! I also think it is super awesome that you guys aren’t finding out the sex of the baby. I think it is so much more fun to find out when you meet baby for the first time. Be sure to tell your ultrasound tech that though…I have heard they can spill the beans. Congrats again!


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    Teresa — July 14, 2014 @ 8:25 am

    You know, most women do not have the luxury to be able to be “stuck” on the couch when they feel terrible. They need to be at their real jobs… Had to say it. Feeling a bit offended for women everywhere…


    • Jessica — July 14th, 2014 @ 8:37 am

      teresa – i’m not sure if you read the entire post but i technically only “missed” one day of work from being sick. i woke up every morning and did my job. yes, twice more i was awfully sick but one of those happened to be on a weekend, does that still mean it’s a luxury? i’m well aware of how lucky i am to have the job i do and work from home, but i also work my butt off at it. i’ve never take it for granted and especially not at this time. i have had friends that have had to stay home from their “real jobs” for a day while pregnant because they were so sick. was not trying to offend anyone – this was a completely honest account.


    • Michelle Hill — July 14th, 2014 @ 9:22 am

      Teresa, just because she works from home does not mean she should experience her pregnancy symptoms any different. Morning sickness is morning sickness nonetheless and she is blessed that she is able to work from home. However, while some women are at their desks fighting the nausea, Jessica has to work with food, which is from what I understand, just about torture when you are pregnant.
      p.s. for women who would like to be “stuck” on the couch even though they work away from home…that’s what sick days are for.
      Sorry, but just like you, I had to say this because I am a “woman everywhere” and I was not offended in the slightest bit.


    • Eve — July 14th, 2014 @ 9:42 am

      Jessica, first of all CONGRATULATIONS OMG I AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU AND EDDIE!!!!! I’ve been reading your blog for YEARS and I actually yelled to my husband “JESSICA IS PREGNANT!!” and he was like “who?!?!” :D I’m sure during this time you will get all sorts of people poopooing your pregnancy-experiences – whatever they may be! I’m so glad that the unisom and b6 has worked and is helping you feel better! I can’t WAIT for more updates!!

      And Teresa, PLEASE don’t include me in your offense for women “everywhere”. I, for one, am glad that Jessica had the opportunity to deal with how she felt in such a way as staying on the couch – for ONE day, at that! Before you decide to be the spokeswoman for “women everywhere”, maybe ask us if we’d like you to take that position in the first place.


      • Teresa — July 14th, 2014 @ 1:23 pm

        Every woman that I know has to save up sick days to take care of the child once it is actually born. Once you are a mother in the workplace, sick days for yourself are done. So, no, I have no sympathy for anyone in her position whatsoever. Because even though she works with food, she could still deal with her morning sickness from the privacy of her own home and not in front of barely acquainted coworkers in the bathroom. Check yourself.

    • Michelle Hill — July 14th, 2014 @ 2:46 pm

      Before I wreck myself? I’m actually quite good, thanks :)


    • Michelle @ Brown Eyed Baker — July 14th, 2014 @ 6:03 pm

      Whether you work for yourself at home or for someone else in an office has absolutely nothing to do with taking a day or two to lay down and, you know, allow your body to NURTURE THE CHILD YOU’RE TRYING TO GROW. The grass is always greener, by the way. Ask someone who works for themselves from home if on a lot of days going into an office to work for 8 hours, then coming home and being DONE doesn’t sound like a luxury. And that when you DO take a “sick day” or “vacation day” you can actually be off of work ALL DAY. When you do what Jessica does, there are NO “sick days” or “vacation days” or “off days”. You work, every day, whether you are sick or on vacation, and many days are long days at that. When are women going to stop being so damn catty and judgmental with each other and actually SUPPORT one another?!


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    DessertForTwo — July 14, 2014 @ 8:38 am

    So, obviously, I completely devoured this post. I love your writing, and I’m so happy you shared it.

    Many congrats again to you two!! Lotsa love!! xoxoxoxo



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    JulieD — July 14, 2014 @ 8:42 am

    I love how you told Eddie…so hilarious!! I never would have thought to do that!!! So excited for you! xoxo


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    Jessica — July 14, 2014 @ 8:52 am



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    Mia Dumont — July 14, 2014 @ 9:00 am

    I am so happy for you both!
    New baby, new home, new book!
    2014 will turn out to be a good year!


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    Lauren J. — July 14, 2014 @ 9:00 am

    Huge congratulations!! Wait until that little blessing arrives, it’s all worth it. I am currently on my second pregnancy due in 5 weeks and being pregnant stinks! I have no idea what it’s like to feel good or not be tired but my first was the same and as soon as i delivered I felt amazing!! You will get through it, but for all of us the sickness doesn’t go away after the 1st trimester. Congratulations – love your blog and can’t wait to see the first pictures of your newest family member.


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    Lynda — July 14, 2014 @ 9:15 am

    I’ve never had a child, and I’m too old to have one now (52), so I loved reading this post. Please keep sharing!!! Congratulations to you and
    Eddie from another one of your invisible internet friends!!!!!!!!


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    Michelle Hill — July 14, 2014 @ 9:16 am

    So excited for you!
    I can only imagine what its like to live day to day with nausea and emotions running through you and controlling you. I am a dietitian for prenatal and post partum women, and I feel TERRIBLE talking to them about food as they are dry heaving in front me…I usually get the look of “yeah right, are you kidding me? I’m not gonna eat grilled chicken on my salad for lunch every day…i can barely stand the thought of it” its not easy.
    And my bff had it pretty bad too, I practically had to bribe her to eat food..anything that wasn’t simply a carb.
    I loved this post and I look forward to reading more about your gorgeous journey. Grateful that you are willing to share bits and pieces with us :)


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    Leah — July 14, 2014 @ 9:25 am

    So excited for you!! I loved this post and I’m looking forward to following you on your journey!!


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    Christine @ Cooking with Cakes — July 14, 2014 @ 9:31 am

    this was such a wonderful post to start my Monday!!! a million congrats Jess, delighted to be (in an invisible way!) on this journey with you!!! xx


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    Jana H. — July 14, 2014 @ 9:42 am

    This is, like, the most adorable pregnancy update I’ve ever read. Not even kidding. :-D Best wishes to you, Eddie and little Baby How Sweet.


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    Ashley — July 14, 2014 @ 9:47 am

    Ahhh, loved this. All 3200 words of it. <3


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    Victoria Bakrdjian — July 14, 2014 @ 9:52 am

    I stumbled upon this post when I felt like I needed to read some Jessica thoughts… I’m so happy for you!!! What a beautifully written message to all your readers! I’ve never been pregnant (yet), and I can’t imagine being nauseated 24/7 (poor you!) but I’m glad to see that you pushed through and are back to exuberant self!

    Congratulations to you and your hubby for this next chapter in your lives: parenthood!! :)


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    Alyssa — July 14, 2014 @ 10:07 am

    If it’s wrong to be excited for your invisible internet friend and her (very) real baby, then I don’t want to be right!!! Loved this post, made me laugh out loud on the train, and I had to tell my husband about you trying to tell Eddie and he looked at me like I was crazy. Blessings to you and your family!


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    Bugsey — July 14, 2014 @ 10:10 am

    I loved this post, keep it coming!


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    Valerie @ Bubbles and Gold — July 14, 2014 @ 10:20 am

    I love your ramblings. this journey with you is GOING TO BE SO FUN! i’m so excited :)

    when i was pregnant, i survived mainly on carbs. bread, pasta, cereal, you name it. i remember that i knew i was pregnant (before i took a test) when my husband opened a can of sardines in my apartment (after our 3 hour trip to trader joes) and i told him to trash it because the smell was so overwhelming i thought i was going to vomit. i knew in my heart then. i didn’t take a test until about a week later because i was so petrified.

    but being a parent is the best!


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    Teresa — July 14, 2014 @ 10:29 am

    I loved every single word and told the story, with outright reading the paragraph of you telling your husband, to my husband, who enjoyed it also. We are anxiously waiting for our son and daughter-in-law to give us grandkids. They lost a baby in January, after 10 weeks, so we have all our fingers and toes crossed for another pregnancy. In the meantime, we are surrogate grandparents to every child, dog, cat, etc. near us. I will enjoy reading your pregnancy posts!


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    Sophia @ NY Foodgasm — July 14, 2014 @ 10:44 am

    Soooo excited for you, but now I have soooo much anxiety about getting pregnant someday! Eeeeeek! I don’t wanna spend every day being sick :(


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    Amanda — July 14, 2014 @ 11:03 am

    Jessica – many congrats on your exciting news. I’ve been following your blog for years now and am very happy for you and your husband. My husband and I are expectin our first in January so it’s nice to have someone who is sharing my experience in real time. Thank you for sharing your experience with all of your readers.

    I, wondering – where did you get the stretchy white top you’re wearing in your announcement post and the mint green one you’re wearing in the pic above? I love the stretchy tops and could sure use some :)


    • Jessica — July 14th, 2014 @ 11:31 am

      it’s actually the same top! the first pic the other day was just in black in white cause i thought it matched better… haha. so both pics are of the mint top and they are from athleta. they are not maternity wear but very stretchy (i have them in M’s but i love them so much and might go get some L’s as i grow) – i can’t find the exact top but they are like this one: http://athleta.gap.com/browse/product.do?cid=1011678&vid=1&pid=970783032

      also target has some great stretchy maternity tanks!


      • Amanda — July 14th, 2014 @ 1:15 pm

        It looks great on you! Thanks for the tips :) Hope you’re still feeling well. I’m just getting into my 14th week so that yuckiness is starting to finally subside. Best to you!

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    onegirl — July 14, 2014 @ 11:12 am

    Congratulations!! So exciting.
    Hopefully you can do some baby foods. hee hee.


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    Nancy — July 14, 2014 @ 11:19 am

    I’m so happy for you Jess. Just reading your blog and laughing (you ARE funny!), I’m reliving some of the same pregnancy feelings I had with mine.
    It’s the most thrilling and amazing thing you will ever in your life, be blessed to experience…try to relish in every minute of it.


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    Gila — July 14, 2014 @ 11:25 am

    I’ve loved your blog for years but never commented but i this made me so happy i actually cried tears of joys i was so excited for you. I sometimes get these feeling with friend i haven’t seen in months where i’ll suddenly think to myself oh, i wonder if friend is pregnant and then literally the next day she’ll call to tell me she’s having a baby. For the past month or so every time i would read your blog i would have that feeling. crazy!! can’t wait to hear about the rest of the pregnancy. sending lots of good wishes to your family.


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    Megan — July 14, 2014 @ 11:39 am

    Oh, I can relate to soooo much in this post. I’m currently 9 weeks and experiencing the nausea and hatred of all food. My first reaction was also intense fear, but seeing the heartbeat a few weeks ago calmed me considerably. I am so excited to follow along with your pregnancy since we are so close and I love everything you write! Congratulations!!!!


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    Jackie — July 14, 2014 @ 11:53 am


    Next, thank you SO much for sharing with us! I can’t wait for more updates!!!!!


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    Caitlin — July 14, 2014 @ 11:58 am

    Congratulations! So happy for you! :)


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    michelle — July 14, 2014 @ 12:30 pm

    this is one of your best posts ever.
    it’s amazing to care about someone in this sort of way, even though we have never met.
    that says something about you!!!


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    Cynthia — July 14, 2014 @ 12:36 pm

    I loved reading this. Bring on the long rambling posts please :)


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    Rebecca — July 14, 2014 @ 12:37 pm

    Congratulations!! I’m at 23 weeks and omg I hear ya!! The first trimester woes are like a massive secret being kept from all of us, I swear. I had no idea what I was in for, and I had the crippling nausea + fatigue combo. Nausea. It sounds so innoculous and when people would ask me sympathetically if I had nausea, I felt like a wimp admitting that yes, I did and it was almost killing me. I don’t throw up – never have – so no puking but I’ve decided that 24/7 nausea for weeks on end is a special kind of torture – like the worst flu you ever had that just won’t quit. No one knows you’re pregnant so you have to hide why you just want to crawl into bed for hours and can barely keep up with basic hygiene let alone hair style or makeup, or a full time job!! ;-)

    Anyway hope you’re past all that – I’m now starting to feel twinges of third trimester aches and pains but I’ll take it as long as the nausea is gone for good!! :)

    Congrats again and feel free to post lots more about the pregnancy and your finds. Re: carbs, I’ve become a devotee of Trader Joe’s peanut butter pretzel bites – can’t live without them!!


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    Erica @ Fulfillment From Scratch — July 14, 2014 @ 12:38 pm

    I LOVE hearing about your pregnancy after so long of SECRET! Thanks for spilling all the beans. Congratulations on keeping up with the food blogging in light of all the food aversion! Seems like a major accomplishment, I don’t know if I could do it.


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    Grace (My Spare Oom) — July 14, 2014 @ 12:41 pm

    LOVED this post, no lie. I really appreciate that your writing style “tells it like it is.” That was an absolutely adorable way to tell your husband…and I am amazed at your work ethic. Getting up before 4 am to POST? Dang. Anyways, congratulations again + good luck with the move!


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    Angie — July 14, 2014 @ 12:49 pm

    When I was pregnant, I had a dream I gave birth to a baby gorilla. Pregnancy dreams are crazy.


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    Kimberly K Bedrosian — July 14, 2014 @ 1:14 pm

    So so soooo happy you wrote this!!! I am so excited for you guys!! Such an exciting time in your life and I wish you guys nothing but happiness! Looking forward to more updates!!


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    Jennie B — July 14, 2014 @ 1:44 pm

    That was so fun to read! Thanks for sharing!


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    Jackie — July 14, 2014 @ 1:47 pm

    Congrats Jessica! I’ve been a fan of your blog from when you referred to Eddie/your husband as Mr. How Sweet and there were no pics of his face :) I love your blog and got a little happy-teary eyed when I saw the baby bump! All the happiness in the world to both of you and your Mini Me How Sweet(s). HUGS!!


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    Tracy — July 14, 2014 @ 1:52 pm

    Prenatal depression is for sure a thing. I had it the whole nine months. I cried from the minute I found out I was pregnant until I got on some meds and saw a therapist to help me with the debilitating depression. It was awful. I woke up in bed in the morning and cried until I moved to the couch and cried there. The second my husband came home, I clung onto him and he just held me and I cried. I cried in the shower, I cried when (if) I ate, I cried until I fell asleep and repeat the next day. Awful, awful, awful. The second I had her though, it was like a cloud was lifted off my life and I was better and haven’t felt like that since. Hormones are a horrible thing!


  44. #
    Colleen — July 14, 2014 @ 2:03 pm

    You deserve to ramble a bit, it’s exciting!


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    Corinne — July 14, 2014 @ 2:17 pm

    I absolutely loved reading this! Thank you for sharing!

    I was wondering if you would mind sharing what you are doing for yoga at home? Are you doing prenatal yoga dvds? I’ve been considering buying some DVDs from amazon but it’s a little overwhelming choosing one when you have no idea if they are going to be terrible.

    Oh! And we’re not finding out the gender, either! It drives people INSANE, which only fuels my fire to not WANT to know. (I know that probably sounds awful, but we’re also not planning on finding out for other reasons, too – those people just make it easier)


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    Danielle — July 14, 2014 @ 2:30 pm

    I loved every word of this post because I’m due in September and identified with everything!! (Except the i can’t eat part). I’m going to make my husband read it so he knows I’m not the only crazy one and understands why bagels are in heavy rotation at our house. Thanks for this and congrats!


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    Lauren @ Climbing Grier Mountain — July 14, 2014 @ 2:33 pm

    I am so giddy for Eddie and you!!! A huge congrats, chest bump, fist pump, backwards high-five, and belly bump. I think you two are going to be amazing parents and I am so looking forward to following you on this journey! xoxo


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    Jenna @ www.SensationallySeasonal.com — July 14, 2014 @ 2:40 pm

    Congrats Jess! I am also knocked up (26 weeks and change) expecting my first- a little girl in October. I have to tell you the part about the roasting pork made my stomach seriously turn. I STILL have morning (such a lie because it’s all day really) sickness and am just dealing with the fact that I probably will have it until I deliver. However, like you, I had a hankering for Pizza Hut and subjected my poor husband to it, even though he loathes it like Eddie does. I sat there eating it, wondering why the heck I wanted it in the first place. And super pretzels with mustard sound good. Other than that the only things I can stomach are spicy Thai food (all vegetarian don’t even talk to me about meat), corn and fruit. I’ve totally thrown in the towel with food writing right now because seriously…. seriously…. just I can’t. Besides, there was a week where all I ate was tomato sandwiches with butter. Nobody wants to hear about that. Also, to cut that weird taste in your mouth (I have it too) try loading up on lemons and limes in beverages. I literally put a full lemon into my water these days but it’s the only thing that works. Congrats again and I loved reading your pregnant musings!!


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    Priya — July 14, 2014 @ 2:46 pm

    Despite just being one of your invisible internet friends, I am SO excited for you!! I was smiling through the whole post, but mostly at how you told Eddy and also putting the pregnancy test back at the store. I would have done the same.


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    Lauren — July 14, 2014 @ 2:47 pm

    CONGRATULATIONS! And, forgive my one-track mind, but where did you get that dress at the top?! Wurk it.


    • Jessica — July 14th, 2014 @ 4:49 pm

      thanks! BCBG – about 4 months ago. literally bought it the day i found out i was pregnant… but bought it before. luckily it’s pregnant friendly!



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